order list from the universe

When I first started this site, my thought was this:

“I have no idea what I’m doing or how I’m going to accomplish the goals I have. So I’m going to trust that my dreams want me just as much as I want them. I’ll write them down and share them with people so that, as time and this blog progress, I can update readers on the serendipitous progression/evolution each list item!”

Like… I want to be on the Ellen show as a guest, I want to tell Jason Segel that he is the Gandalf to my Frodo. I want one of my screenplays to be made into an award-winning movie that positively impacts people and shakes things up, and I want to be a NY-Times best-selling author and speaker. I also want to change the game of writing, and I don’t know what that means yet.

A few days into the 365-day journey, I was introduced to the power of finding what the underlying desired feelings of these goals are, rather than hyper-focusing on these specific achievements.

As you can see, most of these goals include some sort of recognition, a tangible thing that says “YOU DID IT, JEN,” success, and helping people. So… What feelings am I looking to feel? And what things can I do now to feel that way?

Below is a prayer to the Universe, stating my intention, and asking for daily guidance. Because, while I think I know exactly where I wanna’ be in five years and all the cute lil’ trophies and “way to go!” stickers I want, the Universe could have very different plans for me. And I’m [learning to be] okay with that.

Bottom line: the Universe is a much more creative and expansive writer than I am.

Please help me help others while remaining balanced and grounded in myself. I appreciate you guiding me toward positive action that assists me in becoming more intimate with these desired feelsies:

I feel…
FULFILLED (creatively, spiritually, etc.)
BENEFICIAL (like a good person, who’s done a good job)
APPRECIATED (yes, I like gold stars)
CATALYTIC/INSPIRATIONAL (let’s share some light with this world!)
GROUNDED/SUPPORTED (I am.)

Show me what to do, where to go, what to say, and to whom… For the highest good of all.

SPANK YOU. SPANK YOU VERY MUCH.