Day 57 of 365: channeling my inner forrest gump

Okay. Two things. (Is it ever really two things, Jen?) No. But. It’s a diving off point, Parentheses. Give me a break. 1.) These last four days have been a shit-show of anger and meltdown and trigger-happy freak-outs and depression and the, like, third time I’ve cried in therapy. And stress-eating, which used to be […]

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Day 56 of 365: why I’m grateful for depression – a video

This is the second time I’ve written today’s blog entry. The first one put Frodo’s invisibility cloak on and is unable to be seen. That’s coo. I can redo it. I have officially survived this last depressive episode, which seemingly came out of nowhere. While in the stickiness of depression, it’s hard to know up […]

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Day 54 of 365: Emotionally bare

I’ve tended to seek comfort being alone. When sad or vulnerable or hurting or scared, I’d find solace in my introvert time. I’d unplug for a few days, turn off all electronics, sit in the messiness, work through shit, come to realizations, and then take a shower, shave, do my hair, and turn my phone […]

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Day 53 of 365: I’m only human, after all.

I’ve been listening to a few specific songs by Rag’n’Bone Man lately. This is him: And he sings with his fucking soul. Songs that I can feel in my bones: Human, Grace, Skin, and As You Are. There are these few lines in “Human” that I find myself repeating throughout the day: I’m only human, after […]

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Day 52 of 365: how to become spiritually fit

INCOMING ANALOGY. You know when you exercise, and it burns/hurts when you’re pushing your muscles and heart, and then you feel sore afterward? And you know how one of the best ways to help with the soreness is to exercise again? (And if you don’t, the soreness seems to last, like, two freakin’ weeks. And […]

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Day 49 of 365: why I do what I do.

I watched The Perks Of Being A Wallflower this evening… and it touched me right smack in the feels. I cried so many tears that I lost count. And yes, I do normally count my tears, because they’re that exciting of an occurrence. (The normal number is 1. 1 tear. Typically in the eyeball on the […]

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Day 48 of 365: brevity (a post in less than 50 words)

“Write anything. Then narrow it down.” I now hush rules and begin. Work out kinks later. I’ve been experiencing present-moment enjoyment lately. Anxiety says, “Struggling = working hard; enjoyment = laziness.” Peace chimes in, “You’re right where you need to be: in the unknown. Relax and enjoy.” And so it is.

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