Day 119 of 365: Goodbye, daily blog.

Right. So. I’ve been focusing on feeling emotions in my body rather than focusing all my energy on labeling them in my mind. And a couple hours ago, I was sitting on the sofa, feeling into my body… And I felt anxious and uncertain and afraid. And I was like, what does this remind me of? […]

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Day 118 of 365: What I’ve Heard Real-Life People Say #2

Oddly enough, I was hesitant to post this. I was like… “OH NO. WHAT IF THIS IS OBJECTIFICATION OR HINTING AT THE TWISTED BELIEF THAT WOMEN SHOWING OFF THEIR BODIES IS AN INVITATION FOR SEX OR OR OR”… And then I was like… But… It’s funny… And relatable. Like, I’ve been there. I think we […]

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Day 117 of 365: Switching the approach + introducing daily real-life doodles

So. Here’s the thing. We are all on our own individual messy journey of self-discovery. Some people avoid/numb it, others embrace it and go with the flow, and then there are the folks who are overly dedicated to the point of burn-out and exhaustion. I BETCHA CAN’T GUESS WHICH ONE I AM. … IT’S THE […]

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Day 116 of 365: I want…

There’s so much I want to do. People I want to hang out with, and new folks I want to meet. There is so much I want to learn. Books I want to read, and museums I want to visit. There is so much I want to experience. Countries I want to see, and mountains […]

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Day 115 of 365: I write because…

I don’t write because I want to; I write because I have to. I share my words and thoughts and feelings in as transparent of a way as possible on any given day because, if I don’t, I can feel the words dancing under my skin… Painting graffiti inside my veins… Sketching doodles inside the […]

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Day 114 of 365: practice what I preach

It’s funny; I was practicing a rap/rhyme I recently finished writing and suddenly had this moment of heightened awareness where I really paid attention to the words I said… And the true meaning behind them. And I realized… Fuck. I’m not living up to the standards I’ve set. Specifically: If we pretend we’re who we’re not Lack […]

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Day 113 of 365: demanding a miracle.

Yesterday, my months of somber sadness and what I’d deemed depression transformed into deep, fiery anger. I came to a realization that nearly every prayer I’ve ever spoken has been with one of two tones: Gratitude, thanking the Universe/God for every tiny thing (even if/when I felt like a bag of asses). Desperate pleading, begging […]

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Day 112 of 365 days of relinquishing control: the point

What if the point is to take the pain we feel and transmute it into something beautiful? To express our pain, to sing it, paint it, scream it, rap it? To challenge our pain with sleeves of tattoos and crazy hair and colorful, frayed clothes? To translate our pain into poetry, prose, a magical world […]

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Day 111 of 365: realizing that other people can be asshats + taking my power back.

I shared some stuff in therapy today about how I was first introduced to the spiritually “awakened” community after my spontaneous awakening. I thought that moving into a tribe-like atmosphere with other intuitive empaths who wanted to make the world a better place would mean that there was no egotistical self-serving bullshit. Which now makes […]

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